30 Seconds to Procrastinate!

"Kill off this thinking
It's starting to sink in
I'm losing control now
But without you I can finally see"(relevant only to me)

I'm still procrastinating a sec, but I'm over halfway done with Tess now. I just came to a conclusion that I wanted to record and get out, more than anything, before I forget or just dismiss it.

I miss community. Not friends. I mean, I have friends, some that I debate with, some that I sort things out with, but . . . I miss having friends to go deeper spiritually with, you know? I hate this "faith as an individual thing" thing around here. Sure, accepting a salvation is a personal choice, and no one person can make another person obedient. But I miss the corporate faith. I miss the small group corporate faith. I miss people who care. I miss caring, myself, sometimes.

All this said, I feel right now as if everyone else has either already succumbed to apathy or has moved a few aisles down and left me standing alone in my own aisle. I know they're close by, but I can't tell which direction to even look in. We can't hear each other; it's not like sonar.

I'm just frustrated. Maybe. Or maybe it's something more.