Friday.....

     I really don't appreciate people enough. Someone asked me tonight why I feel so bad about talking so much, and I think it's that I don't really get the chance to be a good listener when I'm always running my mouth (and sometimes just running my mouth off). I like to listen; I just like the interaction of talking and listening, of listening and responding. I just sometimes get so lost in the little stories I have for EVERYTHING that I don't get back to listening. It seems very self-centered to me, and I don't like it. Plus, I'm usually genuinely interested, and I think being genuinely interested in other people (without being nosy) is always a good thing to embrace. 

     I also realized something else tonight. While telling a story, I said something negative about someone I really care a lot about. I don't know if that's based on this dumb idea I have in my head about how truly knowing and loving someone requires a thorough, equal acquaintance with both their best qualities and their faults, but I'm starting to think that's just crap. But then again, I don't know if I believe that, either. I just don't like the idea of something negative rolling off my tongue so lightly, so effortlessly. Maybe it's time to start making an effort not only to hold those things in, but to ignore them completely. This is something I always come back to. Anyway. 

     Well, I'm going to sleep now. Hot showers are amazing; now hopefully I'll fall asleep quickly.